Tuesday, June 26, 2007

HEARTS.

I wanna change my skin.


It's hard to find something that I like for the moment being.


I think this also applied to relationship.


It's often hard to find the only one that we will love for the whole lifetime.


Normally, it's just awaiting.





At least, I find out that I really really love photography.


I love movies too, to a great extent.


I love sports too.


It's great to know what you love and hate to do in life.


I WANT TO BUY THE CANON CAMERA.


too expensive for me. $1,200 +++ ; guess so.



有了喜欢的事与物, 让人变坚强。

忘了让你伤心的人。。。

Tired.

YAWN. feeling so tired..wanna catch some sleep later. Stressful schooling life..I screw up the presentation today..due to nervousness..so sorry to myself.^^ I make a joke out of myself in front of my class..I wonder how I am going to survive here in this school for the rest of the three years. Worried that I might not be able to graduate if I continuce to be like that in this state.

told my mum that I screw up my presentation todae..she was like giving me a * Normal* look~I can understand her facial expression..It's normal happening to her..Cus, I always get into this screwing state everytime..she say ''seriously,I don't understand why u always like that de..It's not like you know yr classmate for like a short time..u been doing presenation everydae.." lols ^ I know..but yet I can't figure out why I keep doing the wrong stuffs at the important time..
u know? It's hard for ppl to understand your situation when they don't even know what is actually happening in your life..I doubt even my mum can understand my feelings and situation..what's more can I expect from ppl that are not close to me to understand me..it's kidda silly..right??

Dear god ;; please do tell me on how can I overcome the problem I am facing right now? I am going mad soon.. hahas :))

Monday, June 25, 2007

Double tired.

I feel so tired.
I am so so crazy about PBL.
My dreams are getting further and further from me.
I wonder..whether will I be able to attain my dreams.
I guess not. Maybe not.
I feel so unsure .
Just now, I read someone's blog. Now , I realised I am not the one who is feeling in this way. There are so so many people out there in this world who is feeling what I am going through now.
Let's give each other a pat on the shoulder, and say JIAYOU ~ to each other.
Cheer myself up? maybe?
I dislike school"s life now.I am not doing what I choose in the first place. I feel so regret that....if if...??
why do ppl only know how to say IF???
I can't figure out.
I really miss him.
I know I am silly.
Let's me be. I tried to forget, but I can't.

TOUCHING. ; ただ、君を愛してる

I saw this movie on the magazine. It look like a rather nice movie.
Thus, went to do some research more on his movie. It's indeed touching.
The name of this movie is <<ただ、君を愛してる>>. It's going to be up on july in oter country. I hope that the flim production company will buy this movie and shown up in spore. I am so looking forward to this. HEARTS.













I shall post up the overview of this story that I find from one site. read this^^ touching ya :)))


2007-03-31 22:11:49   来自: 猫在跳舞 (深圳)

1。      
是为什么,两个人会相遇。是因为那条马路,那繁忙的人行道,还是宿命的吸引.没有特殊的特技效果,没有华丽的视觉冲击。有的,只是单纯而又能够冲击人心灵的,蜂蜜水一般的纯纯的"爱"。         电影一开始,是圣诞期间的美国。玉木王子所扮演的诚人,追随着宫崎葵所饰演的静流,来到了美国.然后镜头被切换,我们被带回6年前。他们相遇的开始。         


2。      
她。法语系。爱吃甜面圈。喜欢说稀奇古怪的东西。有像野田妹那样的乱蓬蓬的短发。带着大大的像柯南那样的眼镜。穿着像阿久那样田原风格的服装。有慢性鼻炎,嗅觉只有正常人的1/100。发育中。喜欢上诚人后想要成长起来。会单纯的笑,但却极其敏感。还有……家族性遗传病。      
他。英语系。喜爱摄影。随身带着canon黑白摄像机。有莫名的皮肤瘙痒,要时常涂抹药膏。因为这个疾病而极度不愿与别人亲近--怕被闻到身上的药味。喜欢上美雪。租了套便宜的房子在远离车站的地方。单纯。笑的时候会唔住嘴。表情呆滞。反应慢。不敏感。最后……终于发现还是喜欢静流。         
3。      
那是个明媚的早晨。他没有去大学开学典礼,在会堂外的樱花树下,沿着粉色的道路,来到了“立入禁止”的牌子前面。冥冥中被什么吸引着。山洞后面是什么。      然后他遇到了她,在马路边上。她倔强举起右手,想验证是否有好心人会停下车让她过马路。他好心提醒她过去马路对面的另一个方法。于是那一瞬间,她掉了进去了。   那是个没有底的黑洞。   那个洞叫,“爱”。      
但是在他拍下她的那一瞬间,他也开始一步步走向那个洞了吧。        
 4。      
再一般的人也会有暗恋的对象。而通常他们暗恋的对象都是闪闪发亮的人。  
 于是诚人喜欢上美雪。闪闪发亮,美丽,成熟,总是被一群人围着的小万人迷。   
所以在那个八重锦盛开的雨季,当美雪对诚人做出邀请时,他也终于开始渐渐融入那个“正常大学新鲜人”的圈子。而静流,对于一般人来说,不过是个变态女罢了。   
所以在那些朋友以为静流是诚人的女朋友时,诚人只是一个劲地说,“只是朋友只是朋友。”   于是超级敏感的静流生气了。她很难过。虽然真的是朋友。但是为什么不为我辩解。我习惯了别人觉得我变态。但是为什么不帮我辩解说“她只是比较有个性罢了”呢。就像在掩饰什么一样。明明一起在闪着绿光、被晨雾缭绕的森林里一起拍照、一起寻找美丽的小鸟不是吗。静流就这么让你觉得羞愧嘛。      
所以说人的感觉真得很神奇。可以灵敏到通过一个眼神一个动作就明白谁谁谁喜欢谁谁谁,也可以迟钝到3年都没发现一些事。        
后来在诚人手把手的教会了静流拍照后,整件事情,是不是开始有点点转机了。      
但是诚人带着美雪过来那个只属于两个人的森林。这算什么。   
于是静流又生气了。      
我只是不愿意长大。我只是不想成长。只要我愿意,我也可以像美雪那样闪闪发亮,让你着迷。   你信不信。你信不信。         
5。      
但是在诚人以为静流会一直讨厌美雪的时候,又看到她们两个在亲密的聊天。这时静流发出令人惊讶的宣言:“我只是,想让我喜欢的人所喜欢的人喜欢我。”      
「好きな人が好きな人を好きになった。」         
画面接着被切回现在。美国某条大桥下,灯火绚烂,霓虹灯闪着迷离的光。在某个房间里,一个女人看了看表,飞速离开。她来到路边,举起左手。   
这一幕似曾相识.却不是曾经的那一幕。         
6。      
大三。谁都知道,这是大学生涯的后期,进入社会的前期。学生时光玩够了,就是时候准备进入社会大学了。      
所以诚人他们也无法避免得到了这个时候。而这时,静流离家出走了。于是神经大条的诚人说,“那来我家不就得了。”   
接下来两个人就开始了同居生活。   
超级敏感的静流,超级粗神经的诚人。   
越来越暧昧了。      
“以后你后悔了我可不管。”   “诶?”   
“等我成长以后,你会后悔当时为什么没有抱住那么好的女孩子。”   
“……”      
真的后悔了啊。
真得很后悔很后悔啊。   
当时为什么不紧紧抱住你。   
就算会发生质变也不管。   只要紧紧抱住你。   
只是,想要喜欢你。      
你这么可爱。这么单纯。又这么心思缜密。这么会做饭。这么爱说谎。         
7。      
静流的弟弟,还有妈妈,因为遗传病去世了。   
一种叫“恋爱死”的病。   
不是骗你的啊。真的是“恋爱死”啊。   
只要恋爱上了,就很快会死了诶。      
所以像那样,两个人一起围在小餐桌边坐着吃饭的时光,那种温馨的气氛,是很难得的啊。   所以请你好好珍惜。      
因此你才一直盯着我看吗。   
一直一直。想完完全全看清楚吗。   像看恋人那样。      
“你以后可别后悔哟。后悔当年怎么没对她下手。”   
“知道了知道了。”   “……诚人,你真是个笨蛋。”         
8。      
“诚人,你知道吗。今天是我生日。”   
美雪的生日。礼物是要诚人陪她去看婚纱展。   
心情大好的诚人,邀请静流一起参加摄影比赛。   
静流说,“那就着星期天去拍比赛要用的相片吧!”   
“但是已经和美学有约了……”   
“……”   
“但是事先约好了啊……”   
“诚人真是个魔鬼啊!先把人逗上天,再把人推进地狱的深渊。”     
 ……      
“很好啊,那你就陪她去吧。   
从那一瞬间起,我就算正式失恋了。   
那一瞬间,你选择了美雪而不是我。”      
虽然嘴上那说,但是静流还是帮了诚人很大的忙。   
给他去买西装。提醒他把钱准备好。帮他把药膏装进口袋。抱着皮鞋飞奔出去让他穿上。   “慢走~”“路上小心~”      
都是为了他的约会。      
这算什么。   
是很好很好的朋友吗。         
于是彻夜不眠。      
“静流,你的生日是什么时候?”      ……   
“哪怕是单相思,在某种层度上都算得上是种恋爱啊。”      
“胆小鬼爱找借口。”      ……         
“那,你送一份份礼物给我吧。”   
“好啊。你想要什么?”   
“Kiss。”         
9。      “
这次摄影的题目我想定为‘恋人’,一对接吻的‘恋人’。你就把它当成自画像,和我接吻。”   “能和诚人接吻的话,也许我会幸福的死掉的。”      
于是早晨。森林。褪去了绿色的雾气,空气是清爽的。阳光透过树叶的缝射出一束束光线。明朗的天空,没有杂质如明镜的湖泊,青翠的小草,明亮的一切。还有你。      
架好相机,我要把那一瞬间记录下来,作为永远。         
Kiss之前,把眼镜摘下的静流,似乎开始流露出女人味。   
作为女孩子的静流。作为喜欢着诚人的静流。诚人你感觉到了吗。         
那个吻。那么轻,那么温柔,那么绵长,那么甜蜜。      
“ne,诚人。”   
“刚才的kiss里,有没有一点爱的感觉?”      
你感觉到了吧。         
10。      
『さよなら。    今よで ありがどね。』      
为了寻找失踪的静流,诚人四处寻找,最后甚至生病住院。      
“我,一直以为那个最初的吻,会让我们的故事开始。但是,如果我早踏出一步,也许就能和径流过上安定和谐的生活吧。”      
“然而却没想到,那成了我们的终点。”      ……   
“我想在那里,等着静流回来。即使我也不知道会等上多久。”      
只有这样了不是吗。既然找不到她。既然没有办法。那么只好在原定的地点等待。只要她知道那里,就能找到我对吧。         
“有啊,不止一点。   
在我的世界里,你就是全部。”         
到现在才说,会不会太晚了点?         
11。      
灯火灿烂的大桥下,夜色迷蒙。   这是美国。然而站在诚人面前的,是美雪。      “想到从前不知道她人在那里,都能傻傻等待过来,也没必要急于这一时了。”   
但是你看到了吗。   
美雪微笑背后的哀伤神色。         
12。      
电话留言一条。   
“我是里中。感谢你的来信问候。49天的法事顺利结束了。静流的骨灰也平安的送回了老家安放。一直以来,给您添了不少麻烦,我深表感谢。……”      
所谓纸包不住火,真相总有揭露的一天。诚人最后还是知道了静流已经去世的消息。         
13。      
诚人来到静流的个人画展,看到了两年来他不曾见到的静流所遇到的人事物……   
再往里走点,他看到了她的照片——黑色长发,黑色礼服,闪闪发亮,变成了极具魅力的美人。      是什么充满了我的眼眶,是泪水,还是酸楚?墙上一张张照片,全是诚人——诚人在睡觉,诚人在刷牙,诚人在丢石头,诚人在吃东西,诚人在发呆,诚人在走路,诚人在拍照……      诚人回过头,看到墙上的一张照片——那张两年前她失踪前拍的那张kiss的照片,旁边还有一段话:   『It was the only kiss,the love I have ever known...』      
『生涯ただ一度のキス、ただ一度の恋』   
(一生一次的吻,一生一次的爱)      …………      
“ne,诚人。你吻我的时候,有没有一点爱的感觉呢。”      
“有啊,不止一点。在我的世界里,你就是全部。”      “ありがど、あたし..”      
『我很庆幸,我是作为静流而生,是这个世上独一无二的。』         
14。      
彼女は、よぐ嘘をいずだ。   その嘘に、僕はもしごしふりいだい。   
(不晓得对不对。。听写出来的。)         
但是任何时候都一样。   任何时候,离别都会比预期来得早。   
即使如此,大家还是笑着说,   
“さようなら。”总有一天会再见。      
さようなら。我们会在别处相见。   
所以我,虽然离你很远很远,但是还是想说,   
“さようなら。我们会在别处相见。”      
The author is very 细心吧。
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Sunday, June 24, 2007

Monday blue.

Monday blusssz ~~
having school todae..it's realli very borning ^^ I don't really feel sleepy now..maybe cos I just have a milk tea bubble tea in the afternoon..that's why I so active now..
donnoe why? I start to reflect on my dreams...Am I doing my best to achieve all my goals and dreams..?? I am so far away fr my dreams..can I do it?? I wonder and wonder,,no answe came into my mind..I am so troubled...
Ppl out there in this world are all doing their best to get what they want..what do I actually want and desire for? What am I looking out for in life???why am I still standing at the starting point without moving on>?
I realised that I am so like find my own talent and interest..but why why my interest are always so hard to develop into a real thing? I donnoe why too ~ If I tell ppl that I wanna be a renowned film director and photographer in the future.. it's seem like a joke to them..I don't wanna care what other ppl think of me as.. I am just me..the only one in this world.. :)))
I miss someone lots. I regret. How I wish that I can turn back time.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Random photos :))

















some random photos ~
























Wednesday, June 20, 2007

pics :))))) wanchai's gang steamboat and pool outing !!!




































































































Monday, June 04, 2007

My confessions

Yup. I am back.
Hols have just started for me since last friday. It lasted for two weeks only.
This is the first break I gonna have since I atended classes in a all new environment, whch is my new skool. :))) it's nice to have a break. I am so dead-beat. A hols will helps to keep my mindmore refreshed , so that i will feel more motivated when skool started.

I think this is realli a very suai {unlucky hols} for me.
I actually drop my new phone into the toilet bowl when I m working. Lols. I am so so sad now. My phone can't work now.Guess that the inner electrical pad is not working anymore. So, I will have to use my old phone for the moment being. The problem of using this old phone is that it's rather laggy..operating extremely slow. Haix~ I can only blame myself for being so careless.
luckily,my parents didn't really get a fuss out of it. In fact, I am quite brave to pick it up. If I don't pick it up, what is gonna happen to it? I didn't has a choice ya :((

I am so unlucky.. hope tis is going to be the end of all my unluckiness.
no..it's isn't !!! ~ just now, my com get infected wif virus.

i told my dad abt this. Guess wat he say " aiyo. u realli unlucky. yr phone get urius sickness. now yr cm get vrus sickness." yup..all the sickness thingy.

Snob^^ what is going to happen to my pics????
I lost some of my contact's number.... urgh!!!! hate tis*

Pls lah...ppl here and there !!!!

I AM NOT A QUIET PERSON !!!!

please don't assume you know me well. ok??
I loves to talk a lot. That's wat my parents often say abt me. They say that I am a talkative person who can talk non-stop. I just seem quiet in front of ppl that I don't understand well , ppl who I am not cmfortable with. I don't show my real self so easily to ppl out there. Sometimes, I just dun feel like talking. cus I feel that I am not so interested / dun know abt the topics. It's quite hard for me to engage in a conversation wif ppl I am not familiar with. I take time to know a person. And , I guess u all too.. so if u know me well enough, then u will know and see what type of person I realli am.

Friday, June 01, 2007

pics..