Raining very heavily

Hi..'.'
I am now at hm doing the d and t project..then hor..actually ifeeling what does we hav to feel so tired somtime..acting lah..i feel tt i am nt able to be my own self..i donno why..esp in front of him..i feel stress..and donno how to say..it's damn terrible..the feeling =( ..tis thur..we r going to palua ubin in tis type of hot weather..i hate it..bt no choice..go there cos of studies..there are so many mosquitoes tat side..i thinkx i will be bite..lolz..

now is raining here..the rain is ver big..=) ..whenever it rain..i will thinkx of woodville..we hav lot of fond memories at there..it's unforgettable for mi..lolz..i feel tat somethn is going to happen these few days..my insuition tell mi tat so..=XxX ..then hor..wht else i wanna say..ah..i forget liao..whatever it is..gt my chin compo..abt lun ti..donno wht to write lah..actually..i feel tat i am starting to lk sci..mayb nt hate..or luv..jus ok for mi..lolz..

gtg..liaox..i thinkx..if nt i can't finish my hws..

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hello..=]
feel how to say ah??donno lah..

hate..useless

I feel tat someone is opposing mi in som ways..bt i donno why..=\ ..she kp on showing mi her stoo face..and i hate it lah..=? ..wht i wanna say tat her attitude was "BAD"..and she thought tat it's great..oh! my god!..actually..donno why she hate mi=XxX ..i did nothn wrong lolz..or maybb cos of some reason..haix!!why do we hav to face the ppl we dislike..and try to force a smile in front of them..it's damn hard
gt st.john..don wan to come..bt for cca points..i go..bt feel useless..cos i don even noe how to do the foot drills..cos last time longg time nv come..and the worst part was tt my juniora r learn it now..so pai xie..don wish to be promoted..i feel tt i am not suit to be a senioer..it's all my fore for nt coming..haix!!! =( ..at tt moment of time..i hope tt he can console mi..bt all my seniors and frendz quite gd..they teach mi lah.

blaR ..BlaR

today..finally rain liao..after all..today was kidda happy..cos ls were fun..lolz..then nt so hot..feel relax..yuz..blar blar..ok liao..
yupz..my story..i finish in writing in a bk.."FALLING LEAVES"

problem and problemS

Hello =)..the weather is hot..is't it??
can't concentrate in my studies..very hot lol..and i saw him toking to a ger..i thinkx he lk tat ger cos of sum reason i noe..blar blar..lif3 still hav to continuce..still hav to walk on..lolz..=Xxx ..tis is wht lif3 is abt..
after sch..chat wif xuan and sharifah..they r troubled over somthn..too=/ ..i hope tat i can hlp them..bt i too..hav my own problem..bt..i hope they can be brave too..= ..cos wht i say to each of them..will hurt them..so..i am nt in a way to hlp them..hope tat they can slove it out..ok??//
gtg liao..bye

I am lost again =>

hello..
i lost my way again..=( i kp my promise lol..wht shld be kp..bt i feel unbearable..i feel lk tt pain in my heart..i don wanna make anybody sad cos of my actions again..cos i hav done it before..which really hurt them alot..bt,it's nt by mean..i jus can't control it..bt now..i decided to make up for my actions..bt,i found it hard..now then..i understand their feelings..i'm truly sorry to them..i hop they can forgive me..and i noe tt they hav already forgiven mi..bt,i still feel bad..i can't forgive myself..once again..i gotten say sorry to them..i make u sad cos of mi..i'll be yr listening ears if u need mi =)

my sci.chem..fail badly..oni get 14 over 50..first time so bad althought my sci hav nt be gd..bt tis is the worse time..i really gt study..bt i still fail..wht shld i do?//i feel useless..

can anyone understand my feeling?

tat stoo.person

today...
i was pissed by one person.
he was my takewando senior..tat stoo.hippo
i don noe how to do..as i was a begineer
he insult mi by saying"I really don noe how u go up to sec.3"..
it's nothing abt my studies..tat's 2 different thing..i was very angry and tok back "it's was two different thing..don make it as it it was the sm thing"..=XxX ..i was damn angry tat when he tok to mi..i simply ignore him..he thought he's wht big thingx..i mus work hard =) i don wan to be insult by tat stoo.hippo..

Can u tell i what to do//

hi...how are you all? ..hop tat it's fine..donno why i feel sad and hurt these few days..i thinkz i am been hurt really deep..until i won't find any pain anymore..hav u ever been hurt by some1..i noe tt i am very foolish in lot of ways..i noe tt he had sum1 he lk..and i feel sad..i am nt able to confide in anyone..nobody will understand mi..nor lend a listening ears to mi..i had to hid my little feelings inside my self..there are always a choice to make..can i choose a choice which suit mi..and can release mi from tis hurt forever..
this is something which can describe how i feel.*at least i thinkz so:

\\can you mend my broken heart//
\\my heart's been tear apart by you//
\\do you know that//
\\can you just listen to mi once//
\\can u just call my name//
\\now then.//
\\my heart's broken//
\\not only me//
\\and some1 too//
\\forget u or not//
\\but,what else can i do??//
\\can you just tell mi//

A diferent experience

ello..sorry..nt bloging for six days..cos..i am kidda busy lol
today..after sch..our chinese class was suppose to go the old folk hm..to hlp out..bt cos of some problem..only 3 person go..[pei jia,hui lim and I]..at first..there r abt 16 ppls going lol..so we take a taxi to the old folk hm..wif Mr.Raju..then..i heard him saying tt the old pPls were very sad when they thought tt we r nt going at first..so luckily..we r able to go lor..if nt they were be disspointed le..and we bring oranges..sum decorations to hlp them decorate the place..it's at seragoon garden way..when we arrive there,one of the nurse took us round the place as we give the old folks oranges..they were very happy..i would see the smile on their face..=) ..after tt,we went to some of their rm..and chat wif them..i saw one old woman..she thought tt her son'll be fetching her back for new year..she ask the nurse..and the nurse shake her head..her joyous face turn to a sad-looking face=( ..then hor..the nurse tell us tt her son did nt wan to fetch her back..when we heard tt..we r all very sad for her..i noe she'll feel hurt..then lor..gt one woman..which want to give us hao bao..bt she does nt hav money..she told us tt she feel sad nt able to give us the hao bao..we told her tt it's all rite..and we are only here to see her and nt here to take her hao bao..=PpP ..after tt,we actually wanna hlp them wif the decorations bt we had to go cos Mr-Raju had a meeting..so we hav to leave lol..we wave gd-bye to them..

i feel happy..tt i can go to the old folk hm..and see how the old folk live..some are very pity..their childrens don wan them..at first..i thought tt it's very easy to be a volunteer bt..now then..i noe it's nt..it's a hard job which require lot of paitence..and care..

wht is mean bt tat??

hello..a nice greeting to everybody..haix!!!stay back for higher chinese..feel stress cos it's harder than what i am doing last time..bt i 'll had to work hard lol'-'..than after tt..i go and eat alone..mayb today i prefer to be alone..wanna thinkz of something..finally find my POA bk..when i go back to class tis morning..saw it on the table..then i angry lol..cos wanna now who is the one who had taken my bk..then shu xian tell mi lun xiong put it there..then we ask him where he find the bk..he say he find it on the table..i very mad cos when i go there and find cannot find..lucky lol..can look through before the tst..nt need to copy the whole bk again..thankz him anyway..cos he gt put it on my table lo..so hint lah!!!!=B ..gt his tst today..the qns very hard lol..one qns 12 marks..i can't really do well..thinkz i going to fail tis time despite study so hard for it..sharifah was very sad cos..she say she do nt hav enough time to finish the qns..so she thinkz she fail..haix!!!mi too..although,i finish all..bt the content's nt gd..

wht is call true frendz??is't it a frendz who shown concern for u or whatever else..i'm starting to feel tt our bond btw xuan n sharifah is changing..any idea??i jus feel tt in a lot of ways..shld a frndship face a problem bravely..i don noe=( ...either m i sure of the term true frendz..or shld i say the change in our bond is due to the different classes..or the environment or even ppls around us..i m nt saying tt i 'm nt changing..i'm chnging too..bt nt my faith..a friendship involve the ppls to retain tis type of relationship..actually no ppls is prefect..neither m i//..i cld rmb tt thoughout the day we noe each other..we only quarrel one time..and it's was nt tt serious or yea..it's serious..and we quarrel cos of sum1..is't tt funny..bt we still patch up..after feeling tt we shld let such small matter affect our friendship..and we didn't quarrel after tt..we shld give in to each other sum time..depend..-)
i believe tt fate is control by god..do u believe in it..fate happen and go as it like..nobody is able to decide on when it's going to go or stop..so thing like tis is very hard to say..and..truely..i believe it..in some way..ok!!tat's all for today..
tmm gt D&T tst...haix!!!~sian lar..very borning..esp.tch's teachings..gtg..bye