Heyy:

I am really tired of putting in my efforts to change the way how thing are now. Whereas, all these doesn't matters to you at all.I feel like a sillyy fool,you kidda know? I am naive, to even think that it's might works when it is not going to help at all. Can't you at least show me some reactions or just tell me what's on your mind? Tell me, please don't keep everything to yourself anymore (:

Are you a normal human-being who have his own feelings & emotions?
I know there must be some reasons behind the fake external self that you are showing everyone. I am willing to listen, really.

God know, I am reallyy dead-beat.

that's me.

I found this for my horoscope today at yahoo.

"Remain high-spirited even in the face of adversity. When you give in to the darkness it's harder to find the light. You are the master of your own destiny, so start acting like it. "

Somehow, I am starting to regret what I have done ytd midnight.
I shouldn't have make that decision ):
you see, I am always like that making decision without having any careful thoughts before that.
I seriously regret. why should I dwell so much on this when it's have already happens?
Now then I truely understood what the term " silly" mean by?

take my love & never break it.

HAPPY 18th birthday to me!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

Ohh, what a nice & beautiful cake!
looking at the cake and blowing off the candle, I made a wish,my 18th years old wish.

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I wish...>>>peace to be always on earth,whereby there are no more nature disasters and man-kind disaster.
people get to enjoy life happily ever after.

I wish for... SHH* cant tell anyone about it (:
even if i know it's wont come true in real life. shall let it be, as it's meant to be just a wish.

At this very moment, I thought of you <3

By the way, I wanna express my gratitude to everyone who wished me happy brdae. Thanks for the wishes(:
I am really very happy to receive everyone's love!! HAHA~

Apart from that, I am really glad to be declared offically a 18 years old girl. I hope to really grow up as a mature & responsible individual.I shall reallyy work hard toward my dream!

ps.dont treat me as a little girl anymore although i am still not that old enough to be declared as a women.

URGH!

just some random pictures taken ytd.
my body tend to be relatively weak these few days.
This happen just ytd when I start to have really bad headache follow by gastric pain which actually stop me from working.It's was so serious that I have to CALL STOP and went home after 2 & 1/2 hr of work. >.<>

a story by yongpyong.

Ha. I will be going to ST for interview today.
This is my decision for e day.

call me crazy, but at least i am going to try.


I feeeeeel very tired these days, lacking of sleep.
I should find more time to sleep so that i be more alert during classes.

My mind is in a total mess these days.
Currently, my mind is going through a lot of stuffs and thoughts filled up my entire brain.
I cant concentrate as that well during classes & work.

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She is so silly, to think of trying her best to fit into a shirt that doesnt suit her at all.
The shirt need a owner that suit it better than she do.
But, the owner cant give up a shirt so easily. As, she reallyy love that shirt very much.
So, what should she do?
so..........

She decided to give up now, in hope for better shirt that will suit her nicely.

although it doesn't seem long..

11 days have passed.

what should i do?

OMG, school start all over again.
meaning new semester, new class,once again ):

who ask you to come to rp here when u should have try even harder in the first place?
there's no cure to dwell over this anymore,just try your best.

My course only have like 5 class. so there's a high possibility that i might get into the same class with en & lyannda again. I've always have bad luck with picking lots. SAD*

Anyway, I guess i m going to be real busy soon if I pass the interview at ST. how am i going to plan my schedule so that it's fit in well in all 7 days? But, i guess i deserve it. who ask me to go for another interview when I alr have 2 jobs in hand to keep me busy throughout this year.

I also donnoe why i agree to go for e interview in e first place?maybe for the money? they paid pretty well for for 8 bucks per hr. It's really attracting me~ just as wat nic and fiona say, for the sake of our future. HAHAHA!!!!!

frend been telling me that i should quit one of my job if ST reallyy hire me. But, I am reallyy too used to working at Suki. I can be my own self there & i enjoy the company of the staffs there.
And, I know they all treat me really well.although, they may be fierce at times.

so tell me what should i do?